Um, yeah…

you may have noticed that my blog has moved (or you may not have and just think i have gotten lazy and don’t post anymore, shame on you!) i was annoyed with the friendster setup and how it didn’t have a very good way of archiving old posts. also, now you will all (whoever you are) stop getting those annoying e-mails telling you that i have spouted some random crap and you should definitely go check that out RIGHT NOW. what you will also notice is how incredibly anal retentive and obsessive-compulsive i am, in that i copied and pasted all my old entries into this new blog (or you think that i just had a whole hell of a lot to say on monday, december 19th.) in actuality i usually do have a lot to say, so that would not even be one great big stretch. anyway, for anyone that would care to check out or subscribe to my new blog, the new url is: http://vforrestal.blogspot.com/ and there is also a link to it in my myspace profile (yes i have pretty much abandoned friendster, i’m so mean!)

ok, can we take a brief moment to talk about ‘brokeback mountain’, the movie where jake gyllenhaal and heath ledger play gay cowboys? i was so obsessed with seeing it this weekend that i went all the way into the city on saturday because it was in limited release and not playing in jersey. and idiot that i am it did not occur to me to buy tickets ahead of time, even though i was going to see a movie about hot gay cowboys in CHELSEA, duh. yeah, so it was sold out for pretty much the whole day. so what did i do? resign myself to waiting for next week, or next month, or whenever our crazy bush-electing red state country decides to let it out into the general population to corrupt the youth of america? of course not. i did what any smart girl (or gay guy) would do, i went directly home to purchase tickets online for sunday. end result: i got to see it on sunday, and it was AMAZING. um, can we please hurry up and get hot man-on-man action into the mainstream? cuz you guys have had lots of girl-on-girl stuff to watch for ages now, so c’mon, fair’s fair, it’s only right. i do have to warn you however, even though the movie was really hot and really touching, i came out of it sobbing like a baby. i mean why couldn’t ennis just realize how important and rare and beautiful true love is? WHY?! ack, that’s what jack gets for dating a guy…

say your friend had a website, hypothetically speaking, and the point of that website was to share all sorts of dirt on certain other people. and say you really love this friend a lot, and you know how important the success of this website is to her, so you want do everything humanly possible to help, including putting up all sorts of things that you would normally not say because they are kind of mean, just to get the ball rolling and jumpstart activity on the site. mhmmm… following so far? ok, so say you now feel a little guilty for saying those things, but they are already out there, and have been read by the people they refer to, and so they cannot be retracted. needless to say this would make for many awkward moments whenever you bump into these people that you have dished on, right? so i’m sure you would want to say to all those affected, "i’m sorry, i was doing it for a good reason, to help out a good friend, whom i would do anything for, but normally i am not so mean and i definitely feel bad about the whole situation", right? sure you would. hypothetically speaking, of course.

well, this weekend i must report one of my more triumphant moments in life. after a huge thanksgiving dinner, including dessert and many, many glasses of wine, i went out for drinks with some friends. when the bar closed, we all decided that we were in fact hungry, and so went to the diner for some cheese-gravy fries, mozzarella sticks and fried zucchini. nice. a diner trip after thanksgiving dinner. we also went out to dinner saturday night in hoboken, at zafra’s, a cuban resaurant that i highly recommend. it’s tiny, and we had an hour and a half wait, but the food was amazing. plus they’ll take your name and then call you when they have an opening, so you don’t have to sit in the restaurant and wait. so that’s my weekend, tons of food and gallons of alcohol. so though i will probably be dieting til right around bikini season to make up for it, i must say it was well worth it. hope you all (whoever you are) had a great thanksgiving.

well, here i am, facing the rest of my life. i’ve been taking baby steps, moving from one ‘project’ to another for so long now, it’s a little scary to have all this uncertainty in front of me. i used to always think, i won’t worry about the future until i’m done with this or that, this degree, this certification, whatever. scary? yeah. exciting? hell yeah. i feel like i will finally have a chance to live my life for real, to be fully responsible for myself, to define my own space, to make my own decisions. i have to say it’s about damn time all this freakin education paid off though. i mean, i’ve only been in school since i was 5. having to go to work every day for pretty much the rest of my life doesn’t sound so great, but hey, no more homework!

well, i put it off for 27 years, but it had to happen some time. i finally got a real job. argh!!! as of jan. 1, i will be a librarian at passaic county community college, haha, very prestigious i know. but hey, ya gotta start somewhere, right? maybe now i can actually move out of my old bedroom

ok, i’ve been fighting this, i really have, but i may have to move my blog over to myspace. or perhaps i can put a link on myspace to my friendster blog. see cuz the thing is, no one seems to use friendster, and i signed up for an account on myspace just to see who was there, and people i know keep messaging me there… which makes me think that more people are over there, and that those people actually USE it. like they post new pictures and blogs and bulletins, etc. so here’s the thing friendster, don’t take this the wrong way, but i just don’t think we are working out. i mean, i think we should totally still see each other, but i think it would be for the best if we also saw other people. and i mean, in the future, who knows? i’m not ruling anything out… you know, if we’re meant to be, i’m sure it will all work out in the end. and it’s not like i don’t love you… i’m just not in love with you. you understand, right? ok, i gotta go, gotta do something, uh, work related.

Ok, i am totally only posting cuz i haven’t posted in awhile. i have absolutely nothing to say. well, except that my back is sore from the long drive to and from maine this weekend. which was freakin awesome by the way. not the drive, the weekend. gotta love a brewfest. i mean, a festival of beer? engenius. plus i’m pretty sure that i avoided doing anything drunken and stupid. i think… so that’s cool. other than that there’s nothing new going on here, except perhaps the constant barrage of interviews i go on. not that i’m complaining, i’d much rather get interviews than rejection letters. but still, it would be nice if one of these kind folks would actually hire me. not that it’s not super fun to go running around the state of new jersey to lock myself in little rooms with people who throw constant questions at me making me doubt not only my ability to be a librarian but also my ability to think logically, speak coherently, walk upright and breathe consistantly.  sense a tad bit of frustration here? ah well, such is life. and since i have nothing even mildly amusing to write about, i will quit wasting your time, whoever you are, and head off to the always super fun festival of laying in my bed and watching tv.

i learned in interesting fact yesterday, that i will now share with you fine people (whoever you are). apparently, eleanor roosevelt was a roosevelt before she married FDR. as in her dad was the younger brother of teddy roosevelt, and so she already had that last name. oh yeah, and also FDR was her cousin. but whatever, they’re pretty sure that outside of first or second cousins you’re pretty much ok with inbreeding and possible retardation of your children. which really got me thinking on the whole issue of values and cultural norms. as a matter of fact, i composed a whole diatribe in my head about open mindedness, but all my years of drinking have reduced the memory portion of my brain to about the size of a wasabe pea, so i don’t remember what i was going to say. but i can honestly say that the first time a read an old book that talked of someone marrying their cousin, i was shocked and appalled. but it was ok then. my point being that the world changes, and society’s opinions along with it, so be careful of thinking you are 100% right in your viewpoints. live your life with the least amount of harm and superiority towards others, and for goodness sake learn to think for yourself and stop letting maxim and mtv tell you what to believe. ok, sorry for the rant… just a teeny little lesson about seeing the world in black and white and being judgmental about views that are different from your own.

well i got yet another rejection letter today, this one from a job i was really hoping to get. why does looking for a job suck so utterly and completely. i mean, i am educated, i have common sense, i don’t smell bad (i don’t think so anyway.) it’s kind of funny that one of the last things i want to do on the planet is to have to get up and go to work every morning, and yet i’m practically begging companies to let me do it for them. sad little fact of life. if only i had been born independently wealthy. or lionel ritchie had adopted me. what i really love is when people say that they would be so bored if they didn’t have to work. i’m sorry if you are one of those people, but they should all be shot. or at least kicked in the shin (cuz man is that ever painful). when i used to substitute teach, all the kids would whine about wanting to be grown ups, and i was totally all billy madison on them ("staaaaaaay heeeere. staaaaaaay heeeeere as long as you caaaaaaaan…) yeah, cuz responsiblity sucks. not that i’ve really ever had any. but i know someone who had has, and yeah, well, you can imagine. Good. Great. Grand. Le’s go!!!